" the words you spoke whispered my name..
raised the very soul i'd banished to hell.. 
as i stand bare before you..
the courage i have to find to look u in the eye.... 
heartbreakingly beautiful.. 
like a soul that's walked this earth a thousand times.. 
heartbreakingly beautiful..
the glimpses of courage.. 
is it not truth i see in your eyes..
pure and untouched.... 
so heartbreakingly beautiful.. "

                              -Shirleen

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2003 - trippin broken . messed up . demented . my soul screams in anguish of your betrayal.. 

2004 - burning the house down . the love of my life . so heartbreakingly beautiful.. 

2005 - year of little words. much happiness. and i dun have to dream any longer..

2006- neither here . nor there . closing one chapter and the beginning of the rest of my life..

2007- million little things . much love . 7wanderlusts . not running ahead of life.. but abreast


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"shush please..."

Why this sadness in this world.. 
dense like a morning fog…
I cried the tears that I'd held so long..
for this world that's gone so wrong..  
the sadness.. destructions.. the broken souls…
So damned broken by this world..
 
a thousand shards of glass piercing deep within my heart..
each breath like a thousand sins upon my soul…
the pain I can’t take.. the escape I can’t wait..
can I close my eyes and not see morrow?
let death wash over me.. like love upon a child..
take me away.. I’m so broken..

who is my friend? Who is my foe?
Why is every face I see the same?
lost in this crowd of faces that I don’t recognize..
Not a single face of a friend..
I need to run away.. from this world that’s turned so cold…

Tell me again that I’m gullible..
maybe I’d rather be ignorant and make live in my make-believe world
don’t force it in my face..
I can’t handle the ugliness of this world..
I try to laugh and feel the joy of when I was but a child..
but no imitation is ever immaculate enough..
no matter what I do I just can’t relive the joy I once tasted..
the innocence.. the pure and simple …  

 

 

 

some long ago that I yearn for so badly..
yet everyday it slips further away..
made up this world to be so much more beautiful
but time and again I’m tripping on disappointments..
can’t I just dwell a little longer in childlike joy?
Bring me back to the day I still believed in this world’s goodness
I don’t know when I stopped believing..

Why is everyone and everything trying to banish me to hell?
I live on hope and love..
Don’t deny me of that..
shush please.. don’t tell me to grow up..
I don’t want to become what I despise

I’m on the brink of insanity..
I’m just hoping for a day longer..
Jaded over and over again.. my heart is in such torment
Why was I placed in this world?
Can’t I just sleep and forget about everything ?
just for one night…
bring me back to when I believed..

an eternity of agony.. the pain deep within my heart,
this wretched soul of mine..
each time I close my eyes..
I see faces… and they scare me..   

                                      - Shirleen

 




Wednesday, 7th February 2007  M & N

M & N!! The two lovely lovely girls we're sponsoring!! from Philippines and from Myanmar! 
You get to write to them and can even visit them.. we're planning for this year or next! 

Please visit
www.worldvision.org.sg and sponsor a child today for $45/mth! 
if you want, you can share to sponsor a child within your own family/friends/cell groups!

the $ doesn't go straight to the individual child but pooled to help the village with building proper homes, healthcare, 
education and in many other ways to help the community to be self-reliant in a span of about 10+ yrs.. after which 
they move on to other projects. 

Please do visit the link.. even if you can't sponsor a child for a long-term period, you can just make a donation at anytime 
when you're comfortable.. 

Wednesday, 7th February 2007  I LOVE FEBRUARY!! 

1st Feb - Lasik Day | 14th Feb - Valentines' Day | 15th Feb - My Birthday | 18th Feb - 3rd Anniversary & CNY !! 
what an exciting week! and not forgetting bonus day!! I LOVE February!! and to date I've only worked 6.5 days!! 
Will update our CNY pics next week.. too many pics to go through.. ohh.. and its time to archive my 2006 entries.. 

This yr is soo exciting!! Just so much going on!! suddenly feel like I've got the ol' me back.. I think i'm finding myself
back.. no longer sitting in the background.. more of the "I'll go tt extra mile, crazy, loud, laugh-alot me!!" 

*15th Feb - My Birthday !  

A fabulous birthday present from IVAN!! Brand new eye-sight!! he paid for my
LASIK *muahahaha muuacks*
Got a lovely
photo album with intricate floral embroidery design from Prints from Ivan! Mum said to never
complain about presents.. otherwise you get no present.. but still $80 bucks for a photo album.. *bish*
Thanks though dearie.. can't wait to start filling up the album with our photos!! 
Also got yummy
Oh! Mochi my sister bought home FRESH for me!! *yum*

Celebrated my birthday with my
family & Ivan.. the way i like it.. just my loved ones.. its the nicest feeling
in the world ! Got a
big fat ang bao from my parents + bonus!! YIPPY!! Ivan ordered a Bailey's cheesecake for me! 
It's from Renaldo's! 

AND!! my dearest
Sister Yan actually came all the way down to pass me a present!! Thanks sweetie.. *muacks*


*16th Feb - Early 3rd Yr Anniversary Celebration !  

This yr, our 3rd yr Anniversary falls on the 18th of Feb which is also the 1st day of CNY.. so we had no choice but to celebrate earlier..
We hadn't actually planned to go anywhere.. but last minute, we got to know that Ivan could book out early and I didn't have to work on
Friday 16th, we searched the net for Batam SPA.. it was soooo last minute! 2 hrs before the Ferry departed.. but we managed to get a 
hotel & book a SPA & ferry tix! so off we went to Batam!! 

It was a nice long rest.. we couldn't do any sea sports or swim cos of my LASIK.. so we stayed in, ordered room service, watched my 
favourite Crime Nights on Discovery Channel and had a nice SPA session!! 

The SPA place is on the top of the hill with a nice couple room and a hot tub.. but we had to skip that cos the hot tub's not good for my eyes!
Just lotsa goofing and talking and shopping.. the toiletries there are like at least $4-6 bucks cheaper than SG prices!!! *lol* 

Fat Fat Puppy Ivan, thanks for loving me.. thanks for the brand new perfect eye-sight you have given me.. I love you!! 
I know sometimes I'm like a cranky old Granny.. but I love you in my own silly little ways.. thanks for being so patient with me.. 
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

 

Friday, 23rd February  2007  My HengHwa People 



Picked up my sis and Ivan and we had a few hours in between before our CNY gathering with my dad's family at my Kor's hse..
so we went for Bala's cafe's really good teh chino and drove and stopped at different parts of Changi beach and took retarded
photos.. Just fantastic that we three get along together so well!! Ivan & my Sis are tag team weirdos that strives to annoy me..

I Love my HengHwa People!! we had a yummy buffet of Peranakan food by Chilli Padi!! we had alot of fun goofing and laughing
and these aunties just adore us so much!! Kinda miss the old days when ALL of us lived in my GrandDad's big home.. 

I just feel so blessed that i have a family.. not just immediate but all my relatives are sooo affectionate, love flows so freely,
there isn't a generation gap, there's always laughters, hugs, kisses, goofing and genuine care and concern and seriously.. 
we could be best buddies! 
How many people can say that? 
How many people still kiss their parents goodnight? 
How many people still tell each other that they love each other EVERY day? multiple times a day? 
How many people still hold hands with their parents?
Or grab each other in bear hugs or even snuggle up to their parents and watch tv at night together? 
How many words do people exchange with their parents each day? 


Ah Gong, we're missing you.. are you watching us from up above? Are you smiling? Your little 皇上
has grown up..
but still missing you as if it was the first day.. "Despite being just eight, I had loved you all that a 8 yr old could have
loved anyone.."

Sunday, 11th March 2007  Jason & Kristy

another fairy tale come true!! they've been together since they were 14!! and today's their big day!!
*tears* weddings always stirs soo much emotion in you!! we woke at 5 in the morning to reach 
Kristy's place and its really soo touching watching all the traditional customaries and the happy teary-eyed 
parents! wonder what will my turn be like.. it was really a very fun day with all my good friends from
Chibuddy.com its really amazing how a common interest in Chihuahuas has brought us soo close
almost like a family.. people who have touched my life in sooo many ways! how we'd all look out for each
other and our dogs.. whenever I go overseas, I've got so many standby nannys!! and it really isn't just
about our dogs.. but the deep friendship we have.. and the miles these people go for each other.. 
really never would imagine making such solid friendships in this adult world.. i'm blessed.. thanks.. 


Friday, 16th March 2007  Kids Camp!

and it makes me wonder.. how did i get from there to here... how did so many years just flew us by?
i can still remember the primary school days.. really.. how did i get from there to here.. 

Just a few pics of the little kids at the camp.. forgot to bring my camera! It was a tough 3
days cos its been a long time since I've woken before 7am!! though tiring and trying.. at
the end of the 3 days camp, it was really quite fun!! kids are adorable.. but so so so exhaustive!
Kudos to the teacher who have to handle not 15 of them but 30 of them on a day-to-day basis! 

 

Saturday, 17th March 2007  Bye bye Sg

So many events and the last 3 days was spent at a Kids' summer camp... I didn't even
have enough time to love my doggies more to make up for the past 3 days which I've been
so busy with the camp!! and then I'm leaving for India tomorrow!!! for 7 long days!! 
Been sooo tired after the camp that I just take my dinner and head straight for bed! the
kids have totally worn me out!! like little JRTs with infinite energy bouncing off every wall!!! 
wahh.. I really don't think I'll wanna have kids.. definitely not a BOY!! *faintz* 

Leaving for
India tomorrow with my dad for a business trip.. why does it feel like I'd be gone
for a long time.. *sigh* I'm always very enthusiastic about planning and going for trips.. but
as the date draws closer.. i feel the dread of leaving my doggies at home..
Puppy will go on
hunger strikes and he's so used to sleeping with me.. they're always whining when I leave 
the home.. and even if I'd return 15 mins later, they're so happy and whining and jumping
and licking me all over as if I'd be gone for a long time.. and its going to be 7 DAYS!!! the
longest period I'll be leaving my
4 kiddos at home in the last 2 years!! 

Of cos
IVAN.. yes I know you're cursing now that I didn't mention you first.. I'll miss you loads
too like how you'll miss me.. but I think you'll still miss me more.. *lol* Be a good boy ok? 
and do drop by and check on my doggies!! *muuuacks* I'll think of you ok? 

Sunday, 25th March 2007  Mumbai 

This is the longest trip I have ever been away from home since 2 years ago.. but its also the trip that 
I didn't miss home so much.. the people there were really warm! and soo hospitable.. maybe cos we 
had dinners over at their homes so it was like the usual family time at nights I have back home.. so 
I didn't miss home much! I was even sad to leave at the end of 7 days.. which is the 1st time!!

Sharing a room with dad was really full of nonsense.. i'd be watching him fall asleep and thinking
how sweet & cute daddy looks like.. and my heart just melts at his sleeping face.. then.... 
"SNOREEEE" and the next moment.. i'm like "I'm GOING TO KILL HIM!!!!!!!" 

#2 moment of "I'm going to kill him" :

He is sooo irritating.. we both smoke.. so he should understand i need to smoke.. but i dun feel
comfy smoking in front of my elders.. so i'm trying to find a corner here and there to smoke.. 
and he will just run really fast and follow me and shout "where are you going?" with this stupid
smirk on his face that made me both wanna luff, cry and tear his hair off!! and when i finally
stood my ground and told him to stop it.. i dun wanna see his face while i take my fag.. 
around the corner of the wall.. he sticks his FOOT out.. "I'm cooominnnng..." OMG!!!!!!!!!!! 


was pretty surprised there in Mumbai.. it wasn't what i'd pictured of India to be.. lotsa tall buildings 
and gigantic mega malls!! the traffic there was pretty amusing! everyone horned non-stop! but they 
seem to understand what the other driver wants just by horning, they'll give way to you to turn right.. 
even the trucks are painted "HORN PLEASE OK" so people know they can horn at them!!

16 million people live in Mumbai.. so for a short 10km drive it takes 45 mins to and hour!!

The Indian food is fantastic!! each spoon of food is filled with so many different flavours.. 
I just couldn't stop eating!! but after 4 days, my tummy had it with the thick and heavy food that the 
remaining days I ate very lightly!

#3 moment of "I'm going to KILL him!!" :

Didn't have much time to take pics! most of the pics were taken from inside the car.. the shopping 
there is fantastic.. but can only see....... cos of my dad!! but the embroidered and beaded and the 
handicrafts there are beautiful!! BUT he wun let me stop!!! 

The only photos here are either from the car or from the plane.. sorry..

Wednesday 23rd - Monday 28th May 2007  Bali - the island of Gods

For our Bali DIVE PHOTOS - http://divecove.ivanshirleen.com

Really loved Bali very much!! 6 days wasn't enough!! 

the hotel was a big surprise as we had thought it was a simple guest house.. 
but we were shocked when our room's glass doors opened up to a lovely 
pool right @ our doorstep!! Sindhu
Mertha

the 1st 2 days we didn't have any dive planned.. so it was SPA, eat, sleep, swim, eat, swim, sleep!!
Spa was a cheap $20 with scrub, massage, body mask and hot tub bath!! $25 includes hair spa &
mani & pedi.. so many choices of different body masks from spice to fruits and yoghurt!!

Days 3 - 5, 9 dives with Bali Scuba water was freezing cold!! less than 23o during thermoclines! 
and i just hateee the cold!! 

waking up, having breakfast of banana pancakes and taking a soaking in the pool was bliss..
(or maybe i'm just too lazy to noe how to enjoy other stuff)

Went to Uluwatu temple on a cliff with the big open ocean and sunset.. & Jimbaran Bay's
Seafood by the beach.. Sunset.. *lovely*



Thursday, 7th June 2007  June?!?!?! Life, keep running!

oh my.. has it really been so long??? almost 3 months! Its been like a mad rush with lotsa stuff to do.. 
feels like I'm no longer running miles ahead with life trailing behind to catch up with me.. now life
has finally caught up.. and we're running abreast! Dun hafta wait for anything to do what I wanna 
right here right now! 

Just returned frm 6 days in Bali.. still in the midst of uploading the pics.. since 28th May! 
I guess its with the New stores opening, the many appointments, Ivan's ord freedom, 
the preparation of new range July and holidays and birthdays and baby showers and ROM
and celebrations, and dinners and gatherings that I didn't quite know how did I get from
March to JUNE!!! will upload Bali pics soon.. *i hope* "life.. keep running" 

Friday, 22nd June 2007  *Windsor Mates* Dive Trip!

The people who shared my dreams of the underwater with since we were kids as young as 7!!
My Windsor Chums!! this would be our 17th yrs as friends!! From crazy fites, to competition
to catching fishes in streams, catching and hide and seek in the estate, to rollerblades and haunted
houses.. how did we all grow up soo fast!! These people who shared my purest joy, my most
innocent childlike joy!!  

Meiling couldn't make it this time round.. so was only the 4 of us.. Ivan, Thomas Shaun & myself! 
Ivan had a last minute trip to biz Penang for work and we had to fly him back via SQ and take our own
van up to Mersing which set me & Ivan back by $400 bucks and still that white faced shit face blabs

Anyway, in my point of view.. the most valuable thing tt money can buy u is your freedom & time.. 
so too bad tt you ain't got enuff dough!!! have never seen anyone with such
sorry looks as you..
长得真抱歉

But too bad u lose.. we had a great time.. more photos --> http://divecove.ivanshirleen.com

Monday, 2nd July 2007  *VS*

thanks to Grace who lured me into buying lotsa stuff.. but the sales at VS was really good.. lotsa cheap bikinis
and the high-waisted pants with pleats I've been looking for everywhere!! Just couldn't resist buying again.. 
crap.. busted my budget big time inclusive of some Oxygen therapy facial which I didn't really need.. but the
effects are wonderful! 8 stupid packages to date.. and a total of 82 sessions of SPA/facial still unused.. *slaps* 
but at least for the next 2 yrs I dun have to buy anymore.. no more shopping for me till September!! 
Need to top up my savings balance till I'm satisfied before I start shopping again!! 

Been so busy recently.. loadsa photos to update.. Especially Aur trip with my Windsor Childhood friends.. 
which I will do tonight!! its July already.. hope our weekend trip to Batam this week comes true.. Ivan's
work schedule's been quite tight.. crappy.. I need a break from diving hols.. taking a toll on me.. 

Took a day away from Office just my
stinky little sister & I.. shopping and buying books!! I haven't
been buying books lately.. only Reader's Digest and lotsa mags.. came home with 9 books! More
sleepless nights and panda eyes for the next 2 weeks! Love this little stinky monster so much!!
Realised alot of things over the few weeks.. the day my parents are gone.. she's gonna be the one
who'll spend the rest of my days with.. and she's the one I truly have to take care of and protect.. 
I love u stinky! thanks for being such a sweetheart especially the day you were Rhea's nanny and
accompanied me the whole day to bring her around and to the vet and just being such a
sweetheart!



Sunday, 15th July 2007  *T100*

 
Finally decided to buy another Sony!! Since even the newer model Canon Ivan bought still 
needs colour editing for dive photos.. might as well just get one real sleek and chic camera
I like with Carl Zeiss's sharp clarity and brilliant outdoor colours!! Love it to bits!! for all
the trouble i have with shaky hands, the double image stabiliser has solved that! 
Set me back $620.. have yet to get the marine pack.. outta stock so can't try out my new
cam this weekend Tioman Lob! But its really nice and easy to use even the additional features
are easy to access and use! LOVE it!!! 

Wednesday, 18th July 2007 i could spend my life in this sweet surrender

think i may have accidentally did an update frm different comps with different saved web.. and lost a few entries.. 

and its all because of u.. 
dis time i'll fite for u, for us.. i'm buying back my freedom.. so we'll almost always be together... 
when it comes to u.. the rest of the world fades away.. and i can only see you.. if only they knew.. of the love we share..

Another year has come and gone.. and the loving's just keeps going.. watching u grow thru the years.. i really
still can't fathom your love.. so unconditional.. so forgiving.. so giving.. so steadfast.. never fails to amaze me
and leave me in tears.. how you sneaked your way into my heart and took the biggest warmest tenderest part..
Everyday i imagine life without you.. and i can't.. u've seen me thru my hardest times.. and brought me the most
heartfelt laughter and smiles in my life.. I would if God permits.. part with good tens of years of my life to give you
those tens of years
.. forgive me for being greedy.. but with you its just insatiable.. I love your pixie smiles.. your
cheekiness.. your manjaness.. your sensitivity.. still the fastest and only one who noes even before the tears have
fallen.. you would have felt my heart before even I knew i was crying.. the one thing that keeps my wandering soul
longing to stop the wandering.. and just fly home to your side.. 

if i could choose one thing to keep with me for life.. honestly.. i think it'd be YOU... 

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

 

Monday, 6th August 2007  shitified

have got 2 trips to update.. haven't really had the time or felt like doing it.. searching for something..
dun quite noe wat tt is.. maybe ain't even searching.. just feels like sumthing is lacking somewhere..
feels a little like drug-tripping but without the high.. just the melancholy and nothingness.. i hope it isn't
what Joshua and I spoke of.. maybe one day i'll even find "is that all there is? outta is that all there is?"
got a crapload of work left to be done.. maybe its just the x'mas and cny range getting me rolling round
like a deranged chicken.. it should be "running round" but i'm not quite up for running right now.. 

my life is still perfect.. i'm still contented.. but just a sense of unease.. i duno why.. probably just my 
crazy deranged mind.. i dun quite noe how to  speak of what i feel to people except those in the same house..  
never quite understood the boundaries and where i should stand.. feels like i've quite got it yet all quite not..

oh great.. feels like shitty days without the passion to dance.. just dun quite feel like moving right now.. 

Sunday, 19th August 2007  i see that land..

Just another Boston night..

I said I think I'll go to Boston.
I think I'll start a new life.
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name.
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather.
I think that I'm just tired.
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind.
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset.
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice. 

Boston,
where no one knows my name.

and i really dun quite get it.. and i really can't quite hold it all together.. the peace i've found.. 
the equilibrium in my life.. keeps tipping the balance.. and then i'm thinking.. is it really all
worth it.. the palpitations.. the tears that keep threatening to break.. the questions.. the
confusion and the crazy voices.. and is it really something i want to go through in exchange
of the moments? i see the peace.. i see that higher ground.. i see it all.. quite possibly within
my grasp.. should i grasp hold of it? 

it isn't always like wat they say about my life.. blessed with options.. sometimes options 
aren't that easy to choose.. but at times like these..i just want to scramble up to to land.. 
away from the dark swirling waters.. up onto higher grounds.. where the water can't reach me.. 
where it will be slightly less comforting.. but i dun hafta keep treading to keep my head above the 
water.. where fear can't get to me..where i can breathe a little easier..

i like things as truthful and simple as they can be.. when there is room for questions.. it tears my inside
up.. i like to believe tt at the end of it all, all things are good.. that i can stop threading and the dark 
water wouldn't engulf me.. i'm tired.. i wanna stop treading.. i wanna stop walking on eggshells.. 
i dun feel i can without drowning.. i see that dry land.. i think i'm gonna buff.. 
 
i dun quite like this.. i just want to breathe a little easier.. 

Life is beautiful, 
We love until we die. 
Our hearts they beat and break. 
Let the monsters see me smile, 
When I run away from harm, 
Can I run back into your arms 
Like I did when I was young? 
And will you hold me tightly 
When will the hurt kick in? 

Life is beautiful But it's complicated, 
We barely make it. 
We don't need to understand, 
There are miracles, miracles.

Thursday, 20th September 2007 

 
You Are An ENFP
The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. 

You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! 

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart. You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. 

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do. You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. 

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

 


Tuesday,  25th September 2007
 *Annual Mid Autumn Fest with Family!!*

I like it that till today.. no matter how grown up , how busy , how caught up with life.. family is always first.. and the way we are so
happy to keep it that way!! Normally Mid-autumn fest is just the 4 of us.. but this yr.. with many more additions.. cos of this
irresistibly cute - Anreeve!! i'm besotted with him!! he is the cutest thing ever!! sometimes makes my resolve for not wanting kids
waver.. but ok.. i'm ok loving and playing with other ppl's kids.. let's keep it tt way! 


counting..

life is falling into place.. with everything i could have wished for.. so i'm counting.. 

  1) Lovey Family + KOR + Cuzzies!! (I just can't express in words the extra-ordinary bonds we have.. I LOVE YOU!!)
  2) my 4 Babies (cutting down on trips & work because money can't buy BACK time.. and you babies just make me sooo happy!! ) 
  3) Ivan's fantastic new MNC Job!! (best part - company policy.. no staying back.. pls leave office by 6pm!)
  4) That means I have my Peugeot Bunny all to myself again!! 
  6) Which means I can start my 10-4 workdays!!!!!! (home sweet home after 4pm on most days!!)
  7) Therefore... Work + Life BALANCED!!  (more time doing things I love & being with ppl and my 4 babies that I love) 
  8) Celia (yes Sissy.. YOU!!)
Friday, 28th September 2007 *OMG*

i know this will come across as an airheaded / bimbotic comment.. but seriously.. "OMG!! wat happened to me???"
was browsing through the 2007/06/05/04/03 yrs of my blog and what the hell happened to me?? 
No make-up, not dressed up (even my mum complains abt this), hair pulled into a bun/ponytail.. like!!!!! *arhhhhh* 

but on the other hand.. if you look at it it's cause i'm seldom out.. which means i'm no longer tt much in pursuit of the
material world.... and its more of a I'm always with my LOVED-ONEs!! which is good.. good thing actually.. hmm..
but seriously.. I am a SLOB!!! muahahahaha but i kinda enjoy watching my mother get annoyed!  

but i'm just too lazy to dress up.. put on make up etc.. not the kinda girl who can do that every single day.. every single time
they go out.. not even if its a once a week thing.. too much trouble.. grrrr...I guess i've always been a slacker.. preferring the comfort
and the fuss-free lifestyle.. but i'm looking so painfully ordinary now.. *faintz*

Thursday, 27th September 2007 Yaris*Peugeot

and i really think that Ivan should let me have the Yaris.. is sooo girl! ya he should take my Peugeot!!!! 
Welcome home Yaribu!! 

Saturday,  29th September 2007 *I*S*


spent the weekend with Ivan & friends.. driving Fat Cheek Yaribu around..


after 1 month of vegetarian food.. i'm almost dying.. and its difficult
cos i'm not a vegetable-person.. so have lost the few extra pounds i've worked
so hard to gain!! I am sooo sick of chinese food!! as most vege places
are like chinese food.. so we went for Mushroom pizzas at this fantastic
place with the sexiest Italian boss who does the Opera really quite well!! 
He bakes the best thin crust pizza i've ever eaten! 


went back to the place we used to frequent and talked till the sun came out..
the place where this sneaky little thief stole my heart and where we had our
first embrace.. time really flies.. still doesn't feel like its gonna be 4 yrs.. 


and after writing all these.. i'm soo irked i feel like erasing everything..
it really sounds so cheesy.. i duno how to write about happy stuff.. 





Thursday,  6th December 2007 *Nikon dSLR D80 - all mine!*

Finally!! after waiting for 2 weeks its finally home!! was deciding between the D40X which is $1K and D80 $1.8K.. 
its alotta $ difference.. but after Uncle Sebest explained to me the limitations of D40X and the logic whereby you
upgrade the lens not the body.. and I was sold..
D80!! (thanks Daddy!) lagging very much behind with my work.. 
no time to really use the camera or upload the pics.. and been working 10-6 instead of 10-4 cos yes.. i'm very far behind
in my work.. so no day shots.. and only flash! but its soo fantastic even with flash!! compared to the
Sony T100
bot in July... crap.. now i have no idea what to do with my T100.. its quite disappointing as compared to the
older model of
Sony W7 i had.. which is quite ridiculous that a newer model is not only not as good as the older
model but more disappointing.. so the thoughts of bringing it underwater is devastating!! should i sell it off..
and get a now-raved Fujifilm for underwater colours?? 

oh man.. my weakness --- Cameras!!!!! 

Monday,  10th December 2007 *Happy 3rd Bday Rhea Love!!*

Happy Birthday Rhea!! my little fat butt girl who makes the cutest sounds in the world! This little fighter
has made it.. despite all the odds against her when she was a tiny whiny pup and with all the health issues
dealt to her when she was born, was told she wouldn't hit 1.. but look at her!!! she's now a tough one despite 
her tiny size, just look at her paws between my fingers!! she's such a fiesty chilli padi!! 

You've given me more than I could ever ask for..  no matter how grumpy the day is.. just thoughts of your
deer hops, fat little butt and wags and baby yelps & whines and the way you push your face against mine..
how you can't keep your tongue in your small snout the size of thumb's nail bed.. how your feet goes pitter
patter all over the newspapers over and over and over again cos you can't decide where to poop!! How 
intelligent you are! i brought you home when u were 2 mths old and already know where to pee!!! and how
u try to hide poo in your bed.. and when i catch you with poo in mouth how u drop it and pretend to look
shocked that you were caught! I just can't help but smile and laugh.. 

Stay Happy & Strong & Healthy always.. Mummy will give you the best I can.. so give me many 10s of years
with you ok?? *Love Love*


Thursday,  13th December 2007 http://www.worldvision.org.sg Join Child Sponsorship today!*

It's been almost 1 year since we started sponsoring Mill from Philippines & Naw from Myanmar.. 2 very lovely girls..
Millennia was born on Millennium! that's what's with her name! (Pls read the part in dark pink..a letter from Naw..
which touched our hearts where it hasn't been touched for a long time.. which brought smiles on our faces and yet brought
tears to our eyes)

With the advancement in tech & stuff.. handwritten letters transformed into uniform letters.. sometimes pretty with all the fonts
we have now.. but i always missed the feeling of rushing down the steps when i hear the postman to open the letter-box
to see if i'd received a letter! that was before I was 12.. and @ 12, internet was born into our home! and handwritten letters
slowly disappeared.. along with the heartwarming moments and familiarity you get outta letters posted with a stamp!  

I'd never guess I'd be buying Christmas cards now at 24.. when the last time I'd post real cards was about 8 yrs ago? 
but this year I did.. and its all because of these 2 little girls.. this yr.. it really felt Christmassy.. shopping for their
gifts which had to be as flat & light as possible so as not cost WorldVision ridiculous skyhigh custom clearance taxes.. 
and writing the card and reading all their letters.. yea.. it feels like Christmas this year... 

on days when I feel roped into the grown-up world..and I come home to find a letter from them on my desk, 
everything just goes away.. and i can breathe again.. (of cos my doggies have that magick too!)

 
 
Naw (translated from Burmese)
:I am very glad and happy to get the letter and more happy to know that all of you 
are happy and well. I write this letter myself (in burmese). Before my letter to you was audited by me, handwritten by a
volunteer. When I look at your photos, my sponsors, I don't know how to describe my happiness. In school, I like the English 
subject the most. I want to know how to speak & write English fluently. I like your pretty handwriting and emulate it. 
I also want to know how to read your letter personally when I grow up. I want to be well-educated and be an outstanding person
in my family. That's why I am trying very hard.
I like my teaches at school and I too want to be a teacher. Thank you all for
your help & encouragement.

There they were.. thanking us for our kind gestures & the difference we have made in their lives.. yet little did they 
know.. they were the ones who had touched our lives soo much! Of the instant noodles generation living in a concrete
jungle, of people who live by splurging on indulgences.. I'm not sure how it really fulfills people's lives.. maybe material
stuff do make some people's lives complete.. it just doesn't do it for me.. but knowing that a little child out there is
learning English to be able to read my letters personally.. I really don't deserve this honour.. but Thank you.. for the smiles
and heartwarmers u've given me so generously.

 

Monday, 31st December 2007 *Bye 2007.. I'll Miss You!*

Spent my New Year's with Chibuddies.. 16 of us in Batam.. totally missed out on my 2007~2008 think-over & transition.. 
still kinda stuck in 2007.. as its is technically 3rd of January today! & I'm 3 days late already!

2007 was really really a splendid year!! was like for the 1st time in my life I wasn't running few miles ahead with 'Life' trying to 
catch up with me.. we were running abreast & it was like my whole life just burst with so much excitement, so much blessings
so much realisation, so much love & 7 amazing trips!! it was a really crazy outta this world year for me! BLESSED BLESSED BLESSED!

 
2007 - Highlights / Lowlights in random order
Puppy my stint to break 10 trips this yr crumbled when Puppy jumped off Mum's bed which he has done so for years but broke his hand this time..& it really hit home.. he is really old.. 12yrs.. & my world just crumbles.. not going to go on trips as best i as can.. cos i can always travel anytime i want to.. but we're living on borrowed time which we've been generously blessed with.. ya.. this was the only & worst downpoint in 2007 
              "if i could choose 1 thing to keep with me for life.. I honestly think it would be you.."
10-4pm Workdays Post-Puppy shockwave, I decided tt I'm going to be home more often.. served an ultimatum.. "either half my workdays & half my pay or take it as i quit but i'll still help OTOT" and we compromised with 2 shifts.. Me 10-4pm, Parents 1-6pm.. will better it 2008!
M&N sponsoring M from Philippines & N from Myanmar.. they gave me back so much more than I could have given.. how they're so filled with love & everything that this concrete jungle is missing.. & even gave me back X'mas which all started with buying a simple REAL PAPER X'mas card and not those we receive and delete online.. and the Magick of X'mas just exploded.. a really simple X'mas this year.. but such a joyous one!God has a funny way..when you think ur helping sum1..u'll never know tt it might have been His plan to have YOU helped..  
India
7days
1st trip alone with Daddykins! totally loved it meeting the people behind our productions.. was the longest trip i'd ever been away frm home in the last 3 yrs yet it was 1 which i missed home the least.. the warmth & hospitality & dinners with their families.. 
Windsor
Childhood
Friends!
The kids I grew up with in Windsor, the dreams we dreamed together, guess very much contributed to what we still dream of today! we actually made it to DiveAur together!! Realising one of the dreams we had! The water-baby I've become.. all thanks to the daily swimming we did & all the fondest memories of my life.. was the fun-filled childhood of simple things like trekking & catching fish in venus & catching & sardines & blading & singing & guitars & baking.. such simple things.. yet the most fulfilling!
DiveBali
6days
1st time back since I was a kid! 1st dive outta M'sia waters.. from the warm cosy waters to brain-freezing cold!! Such a quiet, relaxing beautiful place! Met divers Eugene & Wei Boon & we instantly hit it off!! Eugene has since then left his job & gave up his love of diving all to help the Hmongs refugees in Petchaboon Refugee Camp in Chiang Mai.. http://newlifeoutreach.blogspot.com
Trips 1.BatamSpa16-17Feb 2.India18-24Mar 3.DiveBali23-28May 4.DiveAur22-24June 5.DiveTiomanLOB20-22Jul 6.BatamSpa4-5Aug 7.BatChibuds30-1Jan
Musicals 4 musicals.. best of which was Notre Dame de Paris.. well the rest including Phantom was rather disappointing.. 
Cameras my love for cam got over-fulfilled this year! With a New Sony T100 & Nikon D80 dSLR! fantastic D80! loving it and trashing my P&S!!
Chibuddy every1 gives me the weird look like "forum friends??" everytime i mention them.. but really even I would never have guessed.. that at this age.. and thru a forum, I'd made the best & most giving friends in my life! Its as if there was really a past life.. we'd just hit it off, a few of us in the same lines.. many with the same loves & loves even despite our differences.. ppl who have helped me to grow so much.. real friends that build ur character.. that give u so much more before u can even start giving!! ppl who'd go really the extra mile the moment 1 hits a bump! who filled my year with so much fun & laughter & so many dogs! & so much love!! 
God its been a really good journey.. You leave me speechless.. God loves Shanny!!

 

 


 



 


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